walking next to you...

i feel like i am going to have to start taking every chance i get to write a little because it is just going to get busier and busier:)

i just have two things...and they are both, well, nice.

first, toby is so cute. but he keeps me up at night. the past two nights he has been so sneaky. he will fall asleep at my feet and in the middle of the night he will wake me up by currling up on my head and if not that, he has this thing for my nose...he likes to lick it while i am sleeping:) he did it last night and i woke up laughing.

second, i saw the most wonderful rainbow today. and that was so encouraging to me. and on the other side of the sky was the sun peaking through the clouds. and the song that was playing was perfect. ok, and seriously it made me think of that double rainbow youtube video:) so i laughed. lena, caleb, and i watched it a few nights ago. and a bonus, i got to walk into the new shop today. it is huge and the layout is just right. matthis and suzanne did so good:)

that's it:)

how do we determine what a person is? what they will be? why do we get to determine that? we don't. it is sad when we choose to be people who give most of our time away to judging people. not loving them, judging them. i know sometimes we like to think we are being loving by letting people know where we stand on who they are, what they are doing, etc, etc, but we have it all wrong. we need to work on that i think. we should just see so much value in life and i think we just suck at that sometimes. just loving people just to love them. love with no condition. love with forgiveness. love with no selfish motivation. love without judgement. love with respecting unique qualities. love with just love. love in its purest form. today, the pastor said that if we are unable to forgive, perhaps that means we have not tasted the forgiveness of our Father. ok, maybe not in those words exactly, but that was the gist of one of his thoughts:) if we are unable to love people or are just not into that or whatever, how do we taste God's love? idk. just a thought.

this just made me think of moulin rouge:) you know---all you need is love, all you need is love, all you need is love:)

he is home. a week and a half ago a teacher from the school rescued three very sweet kittens and they needed homes and when i found out i got on it so quick. i had been thinking about getting a kitten and one came to me instead:)

he came late last night and boy oh boy is he the sweetest little kitten. he is so tiny and so fun. he cuddled with me all night long and kept licking my nose so i couldn't sleep. church was just a bit painful this morning due to the lack of sleep but it was a good service nonetheless:)

he is going to be a good addition to my life here in montverde:)

happy sunday:)

last night i was sitting outside and the mosquitos came after me so i have a few itchy spots here and there. well, today during 4th period, i reached down to itch my leg and something felt a bit off. my dress felt really thick and tight or something. i pulled it up a bit since it is floor length(a student asked me if i purchased it in california...he said it looks very california... idk:) and to my surprise, it wasn't my dress at all! i forgot to take my jammy pants off this morning and i was in such a frenzy(sleep didn't happen for me last night) that it took until 4th period for me to even notice... and it was due to an itch:) i accidently slipped a little smile/laugh while they were quizzing but i didn't share my story with them obviously:)

hope your day is happy:)

two things. i seem to still be suffering from jet lag which is such a crummy thing or it is something else. i don't know. but i am up nonetheless which is ok i suppose considering i am going to wake up soon anyway. this post is going to be very specific.

secondly, i just checked my email a few minutes ago and my blog lets me know when i get comments now so that i can approve them or disapprove them. this wasn't always the case but it is now. let me tell you why. quite some time ago, someone left a very inappropriate comment on one of my posts. one that i love and it really upset me. i think something similar happened to a sweet girl i know, and jeez louise it is just so not ok. it is a blog, people. i know this might be silly but this is a place where my family and friends come to read about the happenings of my life, so why leave such ickyness?

well, it worked because it was a one time thing....until this morning:/ sometime in the night, i got another inappropriate comment and i am going to assume it is from the same individual because i remember the last time pretty well and well, you know a person's writing, especially in this case. i am not a confrontational person normally. not in person, not via the interweb. if you know me, you know that for the most part, with just a couple exceptions, i will take hurtful things and meanness and not address it. i will allow people to hurt me, stab me in the heart, and take it. there is good and bad in that. most of the time it is just not worth it.

the first time, i let it go, this time, i am going to address it. clearly, you read this person, so this is for you:

i am not going to judge you because that isn't my place, but your actions say things about you, even in something as silly as comments. i think it is really sad that you think it is ok to say/write such horrible things on such a public thing. if you write them, maybe you say them, and maybe it is what is in your heart. no eyes but mine saw it but others could have. my family, my mom:( jeez. i think it is so sad that you are even capable of thinking such things. if you don't know me, you should be able to see by my blog, that i clearly mean no harm. i am pretty simple and nice and even fun, not to toot my own horn. if you know me, which i am going to hope you don't, shame on you. i have not said shame on you to any person in my life unless i really meant it so it has been used rarely and it is strange to use it in this way, but shame. because if i know you, i know myself, and i know i have not treated you poorly because i don't make a habit out of having a poor attitude towards anyone, even in tougher situations and if it happens, my apologies are made due to my conviction.

if you have no conviction about what you wrote, i am sorry for you. i am sorry that you could potentially be ok with tearing another person down by the things you write and potentially say. we are all created so beautifully. so uniquely. by a creator who is a true artist and for one person to be able to tear another person down without any remorse is a horrible thing. it is. life, people, is/are so valuable and i just feel like we shouldn't be wasting our time doing horrible things...especially on a blog...seriously.

i don't feel hateful towards you, just sad for you. you should not do it again please. just say no to yourself. i love when people leave me comments, so if you have a nice one, leave it, if you don't, keep it. don't be a raw herring(probably my most unfavorite thing).

thanks...

ps...on a lighter note, it isn't ruining my day. i am giving my first quizzes tomorrow and today we will prep. fun times ahead:)

since i have a lot of work to do these days, i listen to quite a bit of music. it is hard to just sit and listen to music sometimes, we are always on the go. but these days, i lesson plan, so i have time... the only problem is getting distracted when i purchase new music:) i have been listening to the new weepies today and if you haven't introduced it to your ears yet, you really should, i promise. i found them in college, the first song i heard was somebody loved, i fell in love with there music. that was that. an ear/eye feast for you:)

sufjan, angus and julia, decemberists, arcade fire, all had play time this week:) i am so grateful for music.