walking next to you...

hello, hello:)
and you will have to forgive my extended break…like a year long or so since my last post. oops. i considered starting a new blog being that so much has changed since i last wrote anything worth reading. i am so sad that i hardly had time to write about anything…especially since the past two years have been so meaningful to me. i am hoping that as i remember things, especially from the past year of my life, that i will write about them, BUT i also want to focus on the now. every day from today on. i will be writing from san francisco- a city that means a lot to zack and i…a city that we will now call OUR HOME. yesterday i told zack that it will be at least six months before i will be able to embrace this reality… perhaps even longer. it is something i have hoped for but never imagined being a reality…but luckily i serve a Creator who is bigger than my desires, imagination, me:)
so here we are and it is real and everyday is giving me something different, something new.
a recent something new- i have a niece now and she is the sweetest little lady in the world. her name is olivia jane, she is going to be really tall i think, and i love her a lot. her parents created an email account for her so that we can send her notes and videos and photos and such. i am taking full advantage of it…she is going to love me:)
today, my experiences led me to blog. i have been meaning to for days now…months i guess, but one thing or another has kept me away…today was different. this morning, i went to get coffee and to read this book i started yesterday. if you know me, you know there are few things i love more than books- reading books. it is called no longer a slum dog. it is about the caste system in india and the lifestyle it has created for a large percentage of the people of india. it is just breaking my heart. it deals with the issue of bondage and its many faces but the major story in the book is hope. something we all long for and need no matter where we come from. i am reading about the selling off of children, prostitution circles, starvation… ugly injustice basically. but there is hope and people talk about being freed from life's bondage and it is beautiful.
there is another part to this story but i still have to process it. it happened after my morning coffee and well, i guess i just need to think about it before i write about it. i am learning a lot about poverty. spiritual and physical and how it has so many different characteristics.
i am so grateful that zack and i get to be here. i love it- the people, the places, the food…the food:) i think it will be hard but i think every moment will be worth it. i am glad we will grow together in this new chapter in our book. i am glad that God is moving us, that He is refusing to allow us to get too comfortable. i don't want to be too comfortable. it's nice sometimes but i don't think i was wired to be like that even if i long for it sometimes.
i will write again soon about friends, work, food, other people, lessons on life, other things.
i hope today is lovely for you, rain or shine, 100 degrees or 75, just enjoy it:) find something positive to dwell on. don't say you can't.
love,
roxi

ps- please have mercy and remember that my writings tend to be pretty scattered:)