walking next to you...

i think i know some unhappy people and it is so unfortunate and catching me by surprise. i am working on my tpa right now, fun no, but i must finish it by 4pm so i am just working away. i get antsy when i do homework so i always have to take little breaks...and this is one:)

i went to work for a couple hours this morning and realized that some people that come in must be unhappy people or something because they poke fun at helpless people:( i know that sounds so terrible of me to point out but actually witnessing it today gave me the shivers, it upset me. which is not something that happens often. there was a young homeless girl that came in the morning because a couple friends offered to buy her coffee, really nice guys. she came in and honestly, she was the sweetest gal. she is just living a rough life and it isn't for me to judge. when she headed towards the door one of our customers came up and asked me where we find "those" kinds of people. i nearly chocked on the air i was breathing...yikes. she had not even walked outside yet. with a confused look on my face i answered back by saying i didn't understand what "those" kinds of people were. i don't think that sat well with him because he turned around and walked away...

when another man walked over to sit at the table she had sat at, he took the chair she sat on and moved it to a different table and put a different one in its place... as he was doing so he looked up and said, "well, i don't know where that 'thing' has been." AHHH...at that moment i wanted to scream and cry at that same time. i got shivers up my spine and felt like i was going to throw up a little.

i know i am far from perfection and that is something that i accept and am grateful for because the Lord is constantly able to grow me and teach me daily...that would not be the case if i was a perfect being...it would be unnecessary. but i try to be obedient the best i can and i know how the Lord has a heart for the poor. there is tons of Scripture to back that up. she is a human and this guy called her a 'thing'. she so enjoyed her cup of coffee and talking about chocolate cover ants and my heart was sad that she heard these guys call her a 'thing' as she left. i can't imagine what she must already feel like living away from her family, if she has one, all alone on the streets. how lonely and afraid she must be and how the last thing she needs is for someone to call her a 'thing'. it makes her an object, less than human:(

but she isn't, she is a person...as much of a person as you and me and the rest of us. i don't know how she ended up in the streets but that isn't for me to judge and it doesn't make her any less of a human. Even with faith aside, it seems so wrong on a moral level to act in that way.

i guess i am just writing this because it really made me think about my own actions. i think we have all done things we are not proud of, especially things against our fellow man. and from personal experience, that kind of stuff sticks with you for a long time. we are supposed to help each other not knock each other down. we are to show each other that there is a greater love out there, something bigger than all of us. and this includes those less fortunate. we aren't supposed to prejudge who these less fortunate folks are, how they got to where they are, or what they will do with money if we give it to them. we are just supposed to give. and if we don't give, we shouldn't say it is their fault that we don't give them money...lets just leave it alone and go on our way. it just made me really check myself because i am going to be held responsible for what i do with my time, money, and everything. others will be held responsible for what they choose to do with what they are given. and honestly, i am ok with that...i am ok with not being the final word, it takes a whole lot off of my shoulders:)

oh how i hope that no one is offended by this. if i have stepped on any toes, i apologize truly. it is not meant to offend, it is just something that i experienced today, something that made me think.

i hope we all experience goodness today, in one way or another. i already have:) back to work friends, back to work:)