to paint?
by and so it is...
yes, to paint. i have not touched a paintbrush in well over a year now. why? well first and foremost because painting does not come naturally to me. i know people who are just brilliant when it comes to working with paints and well, i am not so brilliant but i do like to fiddle around with art here and there. i have buttons that i have been collecting, thread, some really terrific tweed, paint, canvas, and brushes... and i have an idea.
yesterday was one of those days. it began with a funeral. someone who i have spent the past 6 years learning from passed from this life into another a week ago and yesterday was somewhat the thing that sealed the deal for many of us. i know that sounds cold but i do not mean that in an irreverent way, it was just really our last chance to whisper our goodbyes to him. our see you later. i felt so heavy during the hour and some of story sharing. i ended up pursuing grad school because he pushed and pushed until i finally applied... that selfish part of me has thought many times, "couldn't you just wait a couple more months?" i graduate in may and he was supposed to be there... well, at least i thought so.
last night was a wonderful end to a mostly awkward day. i had dinner with my best friend robyn and an old professor who is currently in alabama. we were both reminded of how much we miss having that professor around, his ability to encourage thought is hard to come by. it was terrific how old Marler fit into our conversations.
so anywho, i think if time permits, i am going to paint something this coming week. i still have a research paper to write...
janelle: i am SOO sorry i missed lunch with you on wednesday. please forgive me and give me one more chance... like tuesday or wednesday of this week perhaps.
